My Unrequited Love Suicide Experience
I am sharing a lot of advice and tips here on getting over unrequited love and learning to deal with unrequited love. And this advice has helped a lot of people already. But I am not a psychologist or a psychoanalyst or a relationship counselor or some kind of therapist. So where does my expertise about unrequited love come from? It comes from my own experience.
Unrequited love caused me much pain and suffering. It brought me to the verge of suicide. I was in a deep black hole, emotionally tortured, constantly suffering, inflicted with pain through every fiber of my being. I thought the only way to end this suffering, the only way out of that black hole was suicide. I wanted to take my own life because of unrequited love. It was my darkest hour.
Sometimes I think that I have a guardian angel that came and saved me when I needed to be saved most. Because something held me back from doing that final step, that step from which there is no return. And it wasn’t fear. There was no fear of death that moment. I was far beyond that point. I was ready to go. I wanted to go. I desperately wanted it.
But that something held me back. Maybe it was a divine power, maybe it was some psychological mechanism that I do not understand, maybe it was fate working its way. Whatever it was I am deeply grateful for it coming into my life at that moment. Because I wouldn’t be here, sharing this with you, if it wasn’t for that something that saved me.
And things weren’t all rosy afterwards. I still felt love for the person. I was still in love.I still suffered. I was still in deep emotional pain and trouble. I still longed for something that I could never have: the love of the person that I loved so deeply. But something had changed. Some realization crept into my mind. Slowly, I started to see the light. Slowly, I opened my eyes again to the realities of my life. And I could recognize the deep black hole that I was caught in for what it was: a wicked illusion.
I realized that I had to do something about my emotional state, and the state of my life. And I realized that I could do something. Friends told me:”time will heal your wounds and ease your pain. Just let some time pass and you will get over it.”And I appreciate my friends for their well meant advice. But it just wasn’t true. Time will not heal your wounds. Only you will. And he will only do so if you do something about it.
That is why I created this website. To show you that there is something that you can do about it. And to help you do it.
My own personal story has a happy ending by the way. I found new love. And that you love even deeper. I found the love of my life. And I’m happy. And she is happy. Because we love each other. And in a way I am even grateful for my unrequited love to experience that brought me to the verge of suicide, because had I not gone through that experience I would never have met the love of my life, and maybe I would never have had the chance to experience the joy of a reciprocated love, a shared partnership, such a deep emotional bond.